Thursday, June 25, 2009

Late-night summer musings

So Regina Spektor's new album, Far, came out on Tuesday. Even though the album is great, I find myself digging through her old stuff and feeling amazed all over again. I know I've said it before, but when she sings, there is a sense of freedom and peace that I don't think I could ever really achieve. I feel it when I hear it, and who knows? Maybe she has internal struggles that she's able to hide through her music, but I would never know the difference. "Field Below" is the perfect song for people like me, who sometimes feel like they're the last people on earth to be awake, or maybe the first people to wake...but hearing this, they know they're not alone. Also it's perfect for us city-dwellers.

Seriously, maybe it's the summer and mental R&R that I've finally afforded myself, but I'm beginning to feel like I could write music again. I hope that it comes back to me soon. It won't happen overnight, and it won't be perfect, but I've gotten to a place where I'm totally ok with it. It's been a long time since I've been in this high of spirits and confident about my abilities to do things. I feel like I'm learning and growing so much that perhaps I can finally put it to words. I miss being able to express myself like that, but there's hope for me yet! Thanks Regina, as always!


I wish I'd see a field below
I wish I'd hear a rooster crow
But there are none that live downtown
And so the day starts out so slow

Again, the sun was never called
And darkness spreads over the snow
like ancient bruises
I'm awake, I feel the ache